Today in my history/english class I could have just died. We had to write a letter to our Senator or Congressman about Nafta and Chapter 11. I am just not up to par when it comes to this sort of thing. In fact I am at a real disadvantage when it comes to this class as far as the English part is concerned. Most of the students have recently had the teachers for an English 101 class, it has been about 15 years since I had English 101. So anyway, the teacher put my letter on this overhead projector and proceeded to rip my paper apart. I wanted to be somewhere else, that is for sure. The upside of the entire thing was my letter was completely re-written. So now when I go back and re-write it myself I know I will get an A. I still just wanted to die. The kids are in sports this spring, AJ is playing soccer and Em is playing volleyball. Something else to add into the mix of things. I hope I can keep up. My meds seem do be working well. No craziness today, I handled the embarassment quite well.
Wow I can't seem to get any free time. We finally got the decorations done for AJs cub scout dinner. I used to not let anybody help me because I thought every thing just had to be perfect. Not that I did them perfectly.... just better, well let me tell you I have gotten over that! I will take all the help I can get, even if it had tape all over and glue dripping off of it. Makes my creations look soooo much better anyways. My printer was out of ink, so I did not get to do all I wanted but it will be ok. My teeth still hurt, and its been like a week now. Im still not able to eat solid foods. I tried to eat some cereal the other morning ouuch It hurt. I had to have soup today for lunch. That's ok Maybe its good for me. Im thinking maybe school was not a good idea, it really stresses me out. Ok I know I cannot make all A's all the time, but that is what I want. I got a B on my math test and now I am just devastated. Especially when I got all 100% last semester. I think Im going to enter a creative writing contest, but not sure what I will write about. All the creativeness has pretty much been sucked out of me by life, whats a girl to do.
